Good morning world and all who inhabit it!

Today is an odd feeling day. So I have this second job that I absolutely hate. I’ve only worked there twice so far and thinking about going in tomorrow to work again makes me cringe. I was supposed to work yesterday, but some things came up, and lets be honest it was pretty much the last thing on earth that I wanted to do. So I called work and let them know that I wouldn’t be coming in and instead of the guilt trip and slight reprimanding I was expecting, I got yelled at for a good five minutes. This person was talking to me like I had killed their child or something. It was uncalled for. It made me so angry! Therefore, I am quitting. Not just because of being yelled at, but because this job literally makes me depressed. Having a little extra money isn’t worth it to me. I’d rather be happy and outside with my friends. But for some reason, I just can’t seem to shake this guilt that I have from being yelled at. I HATE disappointing people and making people angry and that’s exactly what I did. I feel awful. Still I did not deserve to be yelled at like that and I just need to let it go. I will only be there for two more weeks. 

On an unrelated note, the baby I watch is currently sleeping peacefully. Which is awesome for me because I get to just sit here and relax, but I do wish that I could switch places with him right now. Sleep sounds like heaven. Today is clean checks for my apartment and I have homework due and I’m stressed about work tomorrow and if I was sleeping I wouldn’t have to worry about any of those things until I wake up. 

Remember when summer meant you could just go over to a friends house and play on the trampoline and run around all day in the heat? Then wake up and do it all again the next day. I want to go back to that. No bills, no jobs, no college, no boys, and no worries. I mean don’t get me wrong, I love being on my own and in college, but every now and then I would like to go back to when life was care free. 

What happened to my day? Did I seriously just wake up?

Ay ay ay. This is no bueno.

Maybe I should shower and change out of my pajamas at some point today…

Eh. Probably not. 

Bleeehh so tired and sick.

Of course I would get sick on the day I have work all day and the day I start training for my new job. The kids I’m nannying don’t feel too well either though so movie day for us! 

Okay I am dead serious when I say that some day I am going to have a love like Pam and Jim.

Also I cannot focus on my homework. Someone distract me even more.